"OUT OF THE DARKNESS" POST 80

I feel as though I am moving in slow motion.  Like I am watching my life from the outside looking in.  Is anyone else feeling this way right now?  I feel like I am in a time warp or something...I am fairly certain it has to do with the changes our planet is experiencing right now.  I have to say, it is one of the strangest feelings I have ever had.  I did make it today without a headache and I am extremely greatful for that.

I had to stay an extra day with my sweet granddaughter.  She is having a difficult time right now, so if you would 't mind, keep her in your prayers.  Her name is Allie, and yesterday evening after getting home from work, my daughter took her to the emergency room.

Her heart rate was elevated and she was running a high fever.

Being sick is no fun for anyone, but it is even harder to see a child that sick.  They found she has pneumonia.  They started medicine for her right away.

Thankfully, they said my daughter had caught it early and that was certainly some good news.  This seems to be a much stronger strain of flu than what typically takes a toll this time of year.  

I have always enjoyed my alone time, but here lately, I have yearned for just getting out more.  I have been without a car for many months now.  It really makes it hard not being able to just get in my car and go.  When I would be feeling down, I used to go to Sonic and get a sonic  blast.  I really got hooked on those things.  Since I am paying better attention to what I eat now, it would not be a good thing to be getting that wonderful ice cream fix just anytime I felt like it.

I find myself feeling so alone.  At times it feels like this lonliness will go on forever.  I try hard, very hard, to remember that it is not me alone going through this stage of stillness, but others as well.  It is in these times of stillness, that our Heavenly Father does the most wonderful work within our lives.

When I sit in stillness, it quiets my mind and body allowing me introspection and self reflection.

I do a tremendous amount of growing spiritually, within these quiet times.  It cultivates a much deeper sense of awareness and clarity.  Stillness is  a powerful tool in helping you understand your emotions and motivations.  It keeps me present in the moment and I can  more easily recognize subtle details within my life.  I can focus on calming the constant flow of thoughts I have.

I can become much more appreciative of the beauty of my everyday life; in the present, with no judgement.  

God tells us, "Be still, and know that I am God."  Stillness is a physical, mental and emotional spiritual awareness giving a person the ability to here the gentle voice of God.  Our Heavenly Father will, from my own experience, come as close to you as you will allow Him to.

I could not have made it through these last few years if not for the love and patience of Him in my life.  When it comes to that spiritual stillness and the balancing of our everyday lives, our spiritual priorities will bring us ever closer to that deep relationship with Him that our heart definitely needs.

"OUT OF THE DARKNESS" POST 79

For two days now, I have started my morning off with a bad headache.  It could be an ascension symptom or the change in the weather, probably both.  It's just not a fun way to start a new day.  I want to be able to go to bed and be finished with screen time;  just put on my app and listen to the sound of rain or a thunderstorm.  So far, though, it has not been that way for me.  I tend to binge watch Tiktok, or listen to YouTube cryptid stories before going to sleep.  Atleast until I get so sleepy, I can finally break my mind away from the thoughts of my special person.  I miss him so much it hurts.  I have deep trust in my future with this man.  He is everything I have ever wanted.  It is so hard not having him with me yet.  God's timing, however,  is always perfect and the very best for our highest good, so I will trust in His promises; we are not to lean on our own understanding. Being human, I feel so inpatient at times and I know my divine masculine is feeling the same way.  We are twin flames, soulmates who have an unbreakable, unshakable spiritual bond.  God created us this way.   We both know, and feel our reunion is near. He is here, in my energy, I can feel him, even though we are not together in the physical just yet.  We communicate very strongly through music.  When we were together, we listened to our favorite music together and it was magical.

I can feel his unconditional love for me within my heart and I know, without a doubt, he can feel it too, vibrating from my heart chakra back to him.  It is simply amazing how the very songs I need to hear, magically show up on my Tiktoc fyp.

I had to end up taking something to get rid of this headache.

I have come to my daughters house for the night, so that I can watch after my granddaughter who is out of school with the flu.

I am the only one left who can watch her tomorrow.  My daughter is a nurse and cannot miss work right now.  All I can do is have faith I will not get it.

Walk in faith and not by sight, God tells us,  as stated in 2 Corinthians 5:7.

Trust, and keep moving forward, even when you can't see the outcome.

I lay here on my daughter's sofa, thinking about so many things.

I think about how far I have come in the last few years, and how I am not the same person.

Yesterday's hardships have all  come to an end, finally.  I have only the promise of the very brightest of futures, that I am fixing to step into.  A future that I have manifested for myself through my heart's desires; a life  I have dreamed of living, in my true purpose.

I am 66 years old now and still have never been loved correctly. I have surpassed many hard lessons in my life. When I think about what is coming into my life, right around the corner, it takes my breath away.  Divine masculine and I, divine feminine, will have the kind of love between us, that

only God ordains.  A relationship, truly created in the heavenly realm and one that completely holds the essence of divinely orchestrated unconditional love.

A love that comes directly from God... 

Our love will shine as though a million diamonds.  

We both have been remade from within;  very different people who truly love as our God loves.  We will work as a team to transform the lives of many people, part of our Divine purpose since birth;

by God's Holy design.

I had a very close friend of mine to pass away this week.  She was one of the most special people I had ever had the privilege to know.  I am a strong empath, and even though I loved her dearly, I felt I did not have the energy it takes for me to be in a funeral home setting. I take on all the energy of the entire crowd I am in the midst of.   I know in my heart, my friend would certainly have understood.  I now have to watch closely the circumstances and how I give my energy away.  

I have to pace myself, because I get very weak and drained at times.  Certain situations will put me in a state where lots more rest is needed.  I also have been experiencing alot more ascension symptoms recently.  I have been experiencing weakness, being extra tired, headaches, nausea and even fainting at times.  I have been getting dehydrated very quickly as well.  

I will call it a night and speak to you again soon.

May You All Be Blessed.

Love and Light,

"OUT OF THE DARKNESS" POST 78

Your life is not random.  Nothing occurs without a purpose for it happening.  This is a true statement that has, very often, been ignored.  I would say there are a good many people in this world who do not agree with me.  At the point of my life I find myself, I know this to be a truly enlightening piece of information within my journey. When you finally understand that everything happens for a definite reason, your life will start becoming much more clear to you.  You will gain an understanding that your life is a gift; a magical journey and not something you were thrown into against your will to fight for survival.  People will always have to go through trials and tribulations in life; we cannot always control what happens to us.  Our greatest accomplishments are not in never failing, but in rising again every time we fall.  Pain is a great teacher.  Pain teaches more than pleasure, failure teaches more than success,  poverty teaches more than prosperity and adversity more than comfort.  You will not be able to control everything that happens to you, but you can control how you respond to it.    It's life's problems we face that really tests us and manuevering through those times is what shapes our character.  All pressures and challenges are opportunities to rise.

When you do not know your own worthiness, you can find yourself beat down by your circumstances.  Always believe in your ability to persevere. Dig deep to conquer your fears.  Never let the hurtful words of others bring you down.  There's always going to be negative people around from time to time.  It is possible to stand in your power against that negativity and resist it.  Spiritually, every single trial we come up against is seen as an opportunity for purification and learning a lesson we needed.

Many times, what our human self seems to see as just a bitter trial, can actually be, in reality, a blessing in disguise.  Reach deeply within yourself for that strong, resilient person that God intends for you to be.

"OUT OF THE DARKNESS" POST 77

Send the vibration of love out into the universe, and the love you desire will come back to you.  You mirror whatever you have inside yourself.  If your heart holds love, you will magnetize love back, if hatred is what you have inside, that is what is returned to you.  It is really quite a simple and truthful concept.  It is possible to speak your desire for love into existence, however, you will get back exactly what it is you put out into the cosmos.  If you desire a deep unconditional love, you have to align with the vibration of that love.

Love is a guiding light in this world.  Shine your love brightly out into the universe and you will receive it back from the universe.

First, you must do inner work to radiate self love.  You will then invite a love that compliments and enhances your being.  Love is the reason we exist and that love is a spiritual journey for each of us.  A learning experience made up of memories and circumstances.  We must learn to love without letting the results of our circumstances turn into bitterness within our hearts.  We accept the lessons and keep moving forward.  It is human nature to want to hurt someone who has hurt us, but WE MUST LEARN TO RISE ABOVE THAT REACTION.  We are a magnet to whatever we hold in our own heart.  Thats why people attract the wrong kind of relationships at times.  You must learn that you are worthy of something better; more stable, more loving.

"OUT OF THE DARKNESS" POST 76

Hope is the feeling that something can be had or will happen.  It suggests a greater emotional component than just expectation.  It is a process of conscious and unconscious reasoning, crucial in times of adversity.  It is both an emotion and a way of thinking.  It involves imagining and reaching for a better future.  

When we cultivate hope, we give ourselves permission to be hopeful.  You can tap into your imagination and set meaningful goals for your life.

Biblically, hope is a blessed assurance based on our faith in a higher power.  It is not wishful thinking but a firm belief in God's goodness and His ability to fulfill His promises.  It is a trust that endures through hard times, knowing that God has a plan for those who look to Him.  Hope is a tangible reality rooted in God's character and promises.  The Holy Spirit gives us the power to hope and that in itself is a demonstration of God's love for us.  This hope given to us works to give us confidence, joy, peace, power and love.

Jeremiah 29:11

"FOR I KNOW THE PLANS I HAVE FOR YOU," DECLARES THE LORD, "PLANS TO PROSPER YOU AND NOT TO HARM YOU, PLANS TO GIVE YOU HOPE AND A FUTURE."

God knows what is going on in our lives.  He cares about the situations and circumstances we come up against;  He loves us.

What is worry?  It is an opportunity to trust God...

When we worry about our life situations, our minds get an unnecessary workout.  We jump to conclusions and weigh ourselves down with all the what ifs.  Truly, worrying is nothing but futile.  Worry leads to fear and stress instead of faith and rest.  Holding on to God during these times will change how you handle your worries.  God does not want you to live in a state of worry.  That is why He gifts us with the ability to power through all these circumstances.  He promises to supply our every need.  God wants you to look to Him and have faith.

I used to worry and overthink everything.  With my growth spiritually, I have gotten to the point, I do not dwell on things anymore.  I have lots of faith inside me, and I have been released from the part of me that would spend so much time and energy worrying over this or that.  And you know what?  God has never failed to take care of all the issues that I would find myself worrying over.  My faith grows stronger every day and gives me the assurance of a brighter tomorrow; a hopeful heart...

"OUT OF THE DARKNESS" POST 75

Enjoy each day to the fullest.  Those moments will never happen again.  Everything, and I do mean everything, is a once in a lifetime experience. This is your life, friends. It is your time; your chance to do everything you want to do.  Your interactions and situations, both positive and negative, shape your perspective, understanding and growth throughout your lifetime.  Your personal relationships and how you learn and grow from them are a very important part of your life perspective.  They determine very much how you view the world and your place within it.  Each person's unique journey creates a tapestry of memories, lessons and growth.  Your work, hobbies, travel and challenges are all integral parts of that tapestry.  Learning new skills build up your perspective on what your life will look like and how you plan to accomplish certain goals you have set for yourself.  Exploring new cultures different from your own, new places and experiences will go far in broadening your horizons;  I believe meeting new people in different parts of the world would open up our eyes; seeing how others live their lives different from the way we do.  

The most important decision you'll make about every life experience is the meaning you assign to it.  Sometimes, we transform facts into fiction and

confuse fiction with truth.  All of us have problems.  In almost all cases, they are temporary.  However, alot of the time we consider them permanent. It is just human nature.  Thinking in this way can keep us from living the life we want to live.  This doesn't mean it's not going to hurt when someone breaks your heart, or that it won't suck to fail at something you care about.  It does not mean you won't grieve over your losses.  It just means we have a choice in what we make it all mean.  

When we experience romantic rejection we tend to default our narrative to 'something must be wrong with me'; that we aren't good enough, smart enough or we are deficient in some way.  

When we experience professional rejection we assume that we are the problem and nothing else.  It leaves us with a fixed mindset instead of a growth mindset and it limits our potential.  How you interpret rejection is everything.  

Failure is a necessary part of every risk you take.  There are two options to choose when rejected:

I suck, or

What did I learn from this?

The second allows you to transform your adversity.

Wallowing in self pity in the midst of failure can blind you to the possibilities on the other side of it.

Adversity is what enables us to

develop grit and resistence.  You develop a tolerance for pain only by going through it.  As your threshold for pain increases, your capacity for taking on the greater challenges does as well.

The things which can stunt recovery from setbacks are personalization; the belief that we are at fault, pervasiveness; believing an event will affect all areas of our life, and permanence; the belief that an event will last forever.

In good times and bad, in moments of grief and moments of joy, writing has been healing for me.  Writing allows reflection on your life experiences.  It will allow a much more enlightened perspective on every experience that happens to you.

"OUT OF THE DARKNESS" POST 74

It is my belief that spiritual angels walk among us; spiritual beings that can be messengers or guardians.  They can influence human lives and interact with us, both visibly and invisibly.  It is also my belief, that we all have guardian angels.  These angels are God's creation.  They can intervene in our lives to protect or guide us.  I am sure there are many things carried on behind the scenes by these celestial beings.  There are also angels who support and comfort in times of trouble or loss.  The Bible contains numerous accounts of angels appearing to people as messengers. In Hebrews 13:2, we are told to show hospitality to strangers for therefore some have entertained angels unaware.  This cites as proof, as far as I am concerned, that angels do walk among us in human form. The Bible also warns us that there is a possibility of fallen angels or demonic forces disguising themselves as angels of light to deceive God's people.

I know without a doubt that my guardian angels have protected me from any physical harm on more than one occasion.  I believe each one of us can recall  atleast one memory of a close call that seemed as though it was a miracle that we stayed out of harms way.  We tend to not give these miraculous events much thought.  I can tell you, that unless it is your predestined time to leave this world, there are surely guardian angels doing God's work in protecting us behind the scenes.  There are just too many things that  happen in day to day life, where people walk away without a scratch, that are typically unsurvivable accidents.

There are 'earth angels' who listen to divine messages within their heart and act on those messages.  Earth angels are awakened to their divine mission on earth to enlighten mankind as humanity is in a spiritual evolution.  When enough angelic humans have awakened to who they really are and the world is full of their acts of goodness and love, the world will enter a new era of peace.  Humanity will finally become One with Divine consciousness.  Human angels are like celestial angels, except the celestial angels have no physical body.  The earth angels

look like normal people, however, they are different emotionally, psychologically and of course, spiritually.  They are not human beings having a spiritual experience but rather a spiritual being having a human experience.  Recognizing an angel in human form can be subtle and relies on their actions and energy, rather than physical appearance.  Look for signs of overflowing kindness, intuitive empathy, a natural healing presence and a positive energy that radiates from them. They will radiate selflessness.  They will consistently go out of their way to help others, even when it is inconvenient for them.

The presence of an angel can be sensed around you by feelings of warmth, tingling sensations, seeing random white feathers and sometimes a gentle touch or smelling a sudden pleasant fragrance, as I did during mourning my father's passing. Vivid dreams which are meaningful, uplifting and insightful are known to sometimes be a form of angelic communication.

Angels can bring a wonderful sense of calm in difficult situations.  If your baby or pet seem to be staring at something you cannot see, it could be a sign of an angel's presence.

If you ever encounter someone who seems exceptionally kind, compassionate and helpful, it could just be that you are in the presence of an 'earth angel'.